.torn.

I have a love/hate relationship with distance: it loves me, and i hate it.

There is absolutely nowhere in this world that I can go, where I'm not very very far away from someone or some place I love dearly. "I miss you" and "I wish I was..." are a common occurrence in my conversations. And I hate that.

Not only do I hate the fact that my heart will always be in more than one place at once, but, more than that, I hate that I can never seem to focus solely on being exactly where I am. If I could truly live in the present and enjoy what I love about wherever I happen to be in that moment, I wouldn't need to miss, and I wouldn't need to wish.

But then again...isn't it the missing and wishing that makes the reunion that much sweeter?

I'm not sure.

All I know is that, regardless of the pros and cons, it hurts a lot to be so torn....